You know those moments of synchronicity, like when you're thinking about someone and that exact person calls you at that precise moment? Well that kind of happened with me last week as I was listening to one of my favorite podcasts, The Good Life Project.
I was thinking about how I hadn’t made time to meditate that morning and do my morning ritual and I was just in this terrible, crummy mood that wouldn’t go away all day. And then, out of the blue, this podcast about routine and ritual came on that had me like, “Hey, girl, hey- I’m lookin’ at you.”
I have rituals that I LOVE. I LOVE waking up and thinking about 10 things that I’m grateful for. It instantly boosts my mood and gives me a reason to smile. I LOVE the peace of mind that happens after my morning meditation. I LOVE my time spent working on A Course in Miracles and feeling like I’m connected with something so much larger than myself. I LOVE journaling and mapping out the rest of my day so I don’t feel as overwhelmed and feel like I can accomplish ANYTHING.
Doing all of those things makes me feel so good. It makes my days beautiful, balanced and blissful. It makes my heart and soul soar. So why the eff don’t I commit to doing them fully every single morning and have so much resistance to doing them at all most days? I inevitably feel awful, get uber stressed and anxious, end up taking all the things out on my boyfriend and claiming no responsibility for myself and my actions when I don't. Take last Friday for instance. It felt like part of me wanted to teach the other part a lesson. “Haha, Ali. You think you know what’s best. You think you can boss me around and tell ME what to do. Hooooo boy are YOU wrong.” Muahahahaha
I have this idea in my head that this is what I “should” be doing. That these acts are in and of themselves, “boring”. That they won’t make me happy and that they are a complete and utter waste of time.
*Major Eye Roll*
However, my big thought is, ” What WOULD happen if I committed fully?”
If I had a straight up, "come to jesus talk" moment with my ego mind and sat it down for the down and dirty. “I get it. I see you. I hear you. But I’m not you. You may think you know what’s what but gurrrrrllll, sit yourself down and have yourself a margarita, I can take it from here.”
I’m suuupppper curious to see what would happen if I did make that extra effort and commit to that mere 30 minutes EVERY morning. If I blocked it off in my calendar. Made a Soul Care date with myself.
What if it was better than I could possibly imagine? But I can't imagine. I've never fully committed.
Rituals and routine help to ground us. They help to center us, our energy and our focus. They act as a self soothing mechanism. When sh*t gets too intense, you at least know you have this simple act, whatever it may be, that you do every. single. day. that pacifies your soul and let's you know the world will keep madly spinning on.
These little acts also act as such a reckoning force of self care and self love that you KNOW everything is going to be okay. Somewhere deep down, you just know it.
So today, I put my money where my mouth is. I signed up for Ziva Mind Meditation and I start on Tuesday. *If you've never heard of it, I highly suggest you check it out!
Sometimes it literally takes us shelling out our hard earned nickels and dimes to an external factor to hold us accountable. And I guess for today, for the sake of ritual and my soul, I'm cool with that.
What if it could better than I possibly imagine?
Well, I’ll let you know on May 1st. And that’s a promise.
Hugs and High Fives,